Its Christmas Day

While up till now I haven't really celebrated Christmas before, I was always aware of the story by story I mean the culture that comes along with this holidays, stores make stuff really cheap, so parents can buy their kids stuff and put it under the tree. The kids come down and are told that these gifts are from Santa, all the movies about santa and his slay and his reindeer have been what this holiday has become. But the really reason to celebrate this day is because it is the birth of Jesus Christ, Lord and Saviour to all man kind!!! How cool is that?!?!?! God gave us the greatest gift on this day, better then the most expensive clothes, the sweetest car or the fastest computer, but a give that can give u salvation!! As people we forget or maybe are just that unaware of how much God loves us. We want to live for ourselves and we try to satisfy ourselves on this earth. We feel like we need these grand gifts to really be happy and it saddens God He LOVES US SO MUCH!! This is why he came in human form and was born a baby to the virgin Mary so that he could fulfill the prophecy and save us from our sin, save us from an eternity away from him. This is what this holiday is really about, and the presents, and the christmas tree, the food its great it is but the purpose of this holiday is to reflect on the gift God gave his children, Jesus Christ.

day 3 at Home

Today so far has been really amazing. This morning after boxing I kindof got to share my story with 2 of my trainers today, I told them about my past with Relays and all the drugs and liquir and other sinful stuff from my past and I got to share about how my life has changed with the bible. I pray that God will use my story for these men.




Coffee w/a sister.
It was really great grabbing coffee with a sister today. Just being able to catch up and see how eachother are doing at home. I am still a new christian and I have questions when reading. It was great to be able to discuss things I was wondering about and get some answers. I had a lot of questions about the book of Job and was not sure what people were refering too in the book. Job is a man who loves God and belives that people deserve what they get but when negative things were effecting him he starts to freak out and belives he doesn't deserve it. But the thing we must understand about God is that we deserve everything he gives us and what he doesn't we don't deserve. This is because we already are given grace on things whether we are aware of them at the current moment in time or not. I feel like I forget this a lot. I get so upset now days just knowing how much of a gap of understanding there is between me and my family. I am frustrated that I am saved and that they can't understand why I act the way I do not. Sometimes I want to say I don't deserve it. But the truth of the matter is we deserve every trial and every ounce of grace God chooses for us. 1 Timothy 1:14 states "The grace of our Lord was poured out on me abundantly, along with the faith and love that are in Christ Jesus.". We get so much Grace, but Its not going to always be easy. God Promises that. James 1:2-4 states, " Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, ³ because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. ⁴ Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything." I think this is really sweet, we will be faced with trials, the bible promises us throughout but we must not look at it as a burden or look for pity. We deserve everything we get from got and those trials are not to punish us but to make us stronger in our faith, God loves us and he wants us to trust him completely he hears are cries and knows what we need more then we do. These are not trials of punishment with my family from God rather there are opportunities for me serve and show them Gods love, to show them what God did for them and to love them unconditionally regardless. I must not pity my situation or even look at it as a burden, but just trust that with God I can show them unconditional love.

Day 2 at Home

I am still working on getting into a healthy habit for quiet time with the Lord at school and even more importantly at home. PTL for fellowship and wonderful sisters  God has blessed me with an accountability partner, we are going to text each other around 7 am every morning and make sure that each of us has quiet time with the Lord:) Day one worked hopefully it will continue throughout the rest of winter break. Ultimately each time I will have to make the descision of weather or not I choose to engage in my quiet time but hopefully it will continue to go as well as it did today. Being home as been tough so far but I am trying to keep posative. I found a church yesterday, I am really excited about it. Its called North Suburban church and it is a 7 minute drive from my house its right by the mall and its crazy cause I have pulled into that parking lot before just to turn around. Its down the street from the synagogue I used to work at. Crazy how God had put me in contact with fellowship years ago and I didn't even realize it. It was really cool its half messanic, for all who don't know that means its Jewish people who have put their trust in Faith in Jesus Christ just like me!! It was so encouraging. I even got to pray with one of the pastures, unfortunately I got home I had been planning on telling my parents about it but they kindof cornered me and asked where I was so I told them. I don't know if I will actually be able to attend this church while home over winter break, but just knowing that it is so close is keeping me motivated.