day 3 at Home

Today so far has been really amazing. This morning after boxing I kindof got to share my story with 2 of my trainers today, I told them about my past with Relays and all the drugs and liquir and other sinful stuff from my past and I got to share about how my life has changed with the bible. I pray that God will use my story for these men.




Coffee w/a sister.
It was really great grabbing coffee with a sister today. Just being able to catch up and see how eachother are doing at home. I am still a new christian and I have questions when reading. It was great to be able to discuss things I was wondering about and get some answers. I had a lot of questions about the book of Job and was not sure what people were refering too in the book. Job is a man who loves God and belives that people deserve what they get but when negative things were effecting him he starts to freak out and belives he doesn't deserve it. But the thing we must understand about God is that we deserve everything he gives us and what he doesn't we don't deserve. This is because we already are given grace on things whether we are aware of them at the current moment in time or not. I feel like I forget this a lot. I get so upset now days just knowing how much of a gap of understanding there is between me and my family. I am frustrated that I am saved and that they can't understand why I act the way I do not. Sometimes I want to say I don't deserve it. But the truth of the matter is we deserve every trial and every ounce of grace God chooses for us. 1 Timothy 1:14 states "The grace of our Lord was poured out on me abundantly, along with the faith and love that are in Christ Jesus.". We get so much Grace, but Its not going to always be easy. God Promises that. James 1:2-4 states, " Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, ³ because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. ⁴ Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything." I think this is really sweet, we will be faced with trials, the bible promises us throughout but we must not look at it as a burden or look for pity. We deserve everything we get from got and those trials are not to punish us but to make us stronger in our faith, God loves us and he wants us to trust him completely he hears are cries and knows what we need more then we do. These are not trials of punishment with my family from God rather there are opportunities for me serve and show them Gods love, to show them what God did for them and to love them unconditionally regardless. I must not pity my situation or even look at it as a burden, but just trust that with God I can show them unconditional love.